Brillant

Received an sms from a friend today.

It put into words what i was trying to convey to people these few days.. it's like a sign!

Here goes:

" It is only when we truly know and understand that we have a limited time on earth and that we have on way of knowing when our time is up that we will begin to live each day to the fullest, as if it were the only one we had."

simply brillant!

I'm tired of it already!

A LEOPARD WILL NOT CHANGE IT'S SPOTS!!!!!

Most of the time, a person will only change when they are at their deathbed! And by that time it's also because there's no way they can revert back to their old bad habits because they are dead!

So I most probably will have to handle SHIT for a long time!!!

If this bad habit only affect you & you alone, then so be it..

But if it affects the rest of the ppl around you.. it's jus so irritating.. and it keep happening again & again...

It's also amazing how irresponsible a person can be!

IT'S FREAKING TIRING HANDLING ALL THESE STUPID NONSENSE AGAIN & AGAIN!!

think for a moment

Pause for a moment, stop whatever u are doing right now and just think...

What is the most important thing to you right now? the most important thing ever?

If the image flashes in yr mind...

Are u doing yr best to achieve what is important to you?

Are u treating that most important thing with the utmost respect?

If you are, good for you =)

If you are not.. what are u waiting for?

It will not be everyday that u are as healthy or capable as what u are now.

Illness, disability be it mental or physical & death can happen anytime to anyone.

So don't wait anymore... pursue what u want to pursue, do what u want to do when u can.

If death occurs, it's actually easier, cos u are no longer around to regret what is not done.

Regrets comes about only when u are alert & alive & unable to do anything that u wanted to do earlier..

So.. Why wait?

District 9 ( Super duper cool show!)

DISTRICT 9 depicts a fictional world where extraterrestrials have become refugees in South Africa. Living in slum-like conditions on Earth, these extraterrestrials suddenly find a kindred spirit in a government agent that is exposed to their biotechnology.

Tiring

Sometimes it's really tiring to always having to be the responsible & sensible one.

It's like why can't i be wilful for once and f*** care what happens.

You wish that people who are older than you have more wisdom and will take up more responsibilities..

But alot of times a person's age doesn't means anything, they are alot of times more childish than u ever can imagine.. Ha

And these 'older' people still wants to use their age to command respect...


OH MY F***king Goodness!!!!!!!

Excerpt

'There are millions of people in the world, and the spirits will see that most of them, you never have to meet.

But there are one or two you are tied to, and the spirits will cross you back and forth,

threading so many knots until they catch and you finally get it right."

Jodi picoult ~ Picture Perfect

Dance, Subaru!

Adapted from a popular Japanese manga (comic book) of the same title, Dance Subaru! is a motivating tale about the self-realization of a young ballerina under adversity. Subaru tells the story of genius ballerina Subaru Miyamoto with a special emphasis placed on the harsh training she undergoes and the immense social and psychological pressure she experiences. Subaru overcomes these issues to give a performance that leaves her audience crying for more.

Poem from 'The Yellow Tears'

"In the face of my life all I can do is panic, such is my useless and pathetic youth.

Now, what we acquire along with our first wrinkle, is our trust in life,

this constant and this smile,

which says,'Friend, I know all about you.'

Looking back we learn, Life never deceives man,

Life... has never deceived a man."

quote by Lao Tsu

" For there to be harmony at home, it must be found in your own heart"

soul tibits

"Solitude is used to teach us how to live with others"

"Death is used to teach us about life"

sleeping sickness

"We've all heard about an illness in Central Africa called sleeping sickness. What we should also know is that a similar disease exists that attacks the soul. It's very dangerous because the early stages often go unnoticed. At the first sign of indifference or lack of enthusiasm, take note!
The only preventive against this disease is the realization that the soul suffers, suffers greatly, when we force it to live superficially. The soul loves all things beautiful and deep"

~~quote from {the winner stands alone} ~~

meaning of life? ~~~ part 2

"Live a worthy life, one that always puts others above self."

Think i will go work as a palliative nurse in my future to come, been thinking about that for awhile. Shall head towards that direction.

food for tots

• Retiring and discovering that you no longer have enough energy to enjoy life and dying a few years later of sheer boredom.
• Postpoing doing the really interesting things in life for later, when you won't hav the energy
• Avoiding depression with large daily doses of television.
• Spending years studying at university only to find at the end of it all that you're unemployable
• Working from nine till five every day at something that gives you no pleasure at all just so that, after thirty years, you can retire.

Ben abuyah and learning

Rabbi Elisha ben Abuyah used to say:

“Those who are open to life’s lessons and who nurture no prejudices are like a blank sheet of paper on which God writes his words with divine ink.

“Those who are always looking on the world with cynicism and prejudice are like a sheet of paper already written upon and on which there is no room for new words.

“Don’t bother about what you already know, or what you don’t know. Don’t think about the past or the future, just let the divine hands write down each day the surprises of the present”.

The meaning of life?

'Death is imminent for everyone..

When u are about to die, you want to leave something behind for those around you.

Even if you pass away, you want those you leave behind to live happily.

I'm able to do my best to live because i thought this way.'

** came across this dialogue when i was watching a drama **

Life is short.. I really cannot understand why people insist to be calculative with each other, petty with each other, picking on each other. It especially sad when we are working in a cancer setting, dealing with patients who faces death angels everyday, for what????? clueless.. =(

Antique Bakery

Synopsis:
Jin-hyuk was brought up as the well-bred heir to a corporate fortune. He has got the looks, the money and the charm, but even so, true love is hard to find. Jin-hyuk opens up a cake shop and hires Sun-woo, a talented patissier who had a crush on Jin-hyuk back in high school. Together with Gi-beom, an ex-boxing champion and Su-young, a clueless bodyguard, four unique and handsome men stir up a quiet neighborhood when they show up at the cake shop, Antique.

p/s: Watch this movie on-line today. The shop antique is so cool.. and the cakes makes one drool! the show explore gay theme.. when the gay looks so good, it's no wonder men falls for him ;p

Realised

I think I am finally starting to realise the meaning of all the stuff that I have been reading and reflecting all these time.

All this while i guess i'm just reading them, ponder over their meaning, thought that i understand it, and promptly forgot about it as time past..

I didn't really practise what i believe in that's why i'm constantly pondering over the same old issues over and over again... talk about pot calling the kettle black..ha..

Yesterday night just before i fell asleep, it just suddenly strike me in my head, How long does this have to go on or what have to happen before i realised?


Hmm.. think i'm getting there, it's still at the tip of the ice-berg but i think i'm finally heading towards the right direction.

hope it continues...

*******crossing fingers***************

Soul food of the day

"Work is a blessing when it helps us to think about what we are doing. But is becomes a curse when its only use is to prevent us from thinking about what our life means."

Paulo Coelho

Quotes.. Quotes.. & more Quotes ;)

From confucius;

"To be wronged is nothing unless you continue to remember it."

"We should feel sorrow, but not sink under its oppression."

"When you are laboring for others let it be with the same zeal as if it were for yourself."

"Wherever you go, go with all your heart."

From Dalai Lama;

"Love and compassion are necessities, not luxuries. Without them humanity cannot survive."

"My religion is very simple. My religion is kindness."

"We can live without religion and meditation, but we cannot survive without human affection."

Brillant

“If you want something, first of all you have to show your eyes.”

We can have all the available means of communication in the world, but nothing, absolutely nothing takes the place of the human look.


quote from paulo coelho's blog

yipee!!

Yipee.. got back my music ;p

Hohohoho

www.mixpod.com

Wondering

Everything happen for a reason.

There's always something to be learn, it's whether or not u want to see it or face it.

Someone told me today, sometimes the important thing is to be aware of it, then try to strike a balance in your emotions. It might not be easy to change everything, but alot of times, negative emotions are self-induced.

So instead of inducing negative emotions, why not induced positive ones =)

I will try.

p/s: enough of whining liao..

The art of listening

Was reminded recently that one of the skills that I want to master is the art of listening.

Not really doing a great job of that. Must try harder.

I must learn to listen, really listen and give full attention to the person that's talking to me.
That's the basic respect that i can give to another person.

Equally important is, I must also learn to listen to my own inner voice, acknowledge what is in there before it's too late.

wise..

Soul food of the day

Should one listen to ones heart or brain? Or a mixture of both?

The world is a mixture of matter and spirit so: listen to your brain whenever you need to make material and practical decisions.
But listen to your heart whenever the problem at hand concerns your dreams and hopes.

As Saint Paul wrote in his letter to the Corinthians: “If I have all the eloquence of men or of angels, but speak without love, I am simply a gong booming or a cymbal clashing.

If I have the gift of prophecy, understanding all the mysteries there are, and knowing everything, and if I have faith in all its fullness, to move mountains, but without love, then I am nothing at all.

If I give away all that I possess, piece by piece, and if I even let them take my body to burn it, but am without love, it will do me no good whatever.”

Paulo Coelho

p/s: met up with an old friend today, he told me something that really coincide with what i have just posted today... The signs are all out there.. I just need to listen.

upset..

Something upsetting happen at work today with a fellow colleague and i had really wanted to make the scene ugly but I hold myself back, there's no need for me to go to that level but it really is so disappointing.

Then as i was reading my daily soul-food..

today post was:

"It’s normal that we don’t always keep our enthusiasm in front of obstacles. Indeed some people truly make an effort in destroying our plans and hopes and so they appear as evil."

"But in these moments, if you are able to remind yourself of the reason of your actions and also see that those that are committed in creating pain around them are actually their first victims – then you may at least find an extra dose of consolation in your path. Ally yourself with those that wish you the best and don’t give strength to those that want to see you down. Don’t even grant them the right to be called your “enemies”. "

How apt an entry..


p/s: The key now is how to balance my emotions cos i don't know how to behave around her liao. I can't pretend nothing happen.

"What happens is not as important as how you react to what happens." Thaddeus Golas

"The only disability in life is a bad attitude." Scott Hamilton

"People are just about as happy as they make up their minds to be." Abraham Lincoln

"Our attitude toward life determines life's attitude towards us." Earl Nightingale
"An optimist is a person who sees a green light everywhere. The pessimist sees only the red light. But the truly wise person is color blind." Dr. Albert Schweitzer

"Be not afraid of life. Believe that life is worth living and your belief will help create the fact." William James

argh..

Think imeem is restricting song-play to 30 seconds only...

irritating...

hmpf...

If I were a boy ~ Beyonce

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it
Because they’d stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
If I were a boy

I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone its broken
So they think
that I was sleeping alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waiting for me to come home (to come home)

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand (and you don’t understand)
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you’ll wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you’ve taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you’re just a boy…

海闊天空 Beyond Concert 1996 KTV

Indeed PMS

Part of It is indeed pms mood swings... never underestimate the power of hormones ;p

Anyway I am feeling better.

The mind is clearer..


The search is on....

Ganbatte ne =)

The blank slant of tomorrow - Robin sharma (Reminder)

At midnight tonight, you get a most amazing gift: a fresh set of 24 hours.
These hours are pure and flawless and limitless.
They offer you the opportunity to show courage and behave brilliantly and forge new habits that will get you to a new place of being.
And they offer you a space to laugh. To love. And to do your dreams.
Whether you'll admit it or not, tomorrow is incredible. Not everyone gets one.

So make tomorrow special. No, make it ridiculously great. Breathtakingly brilliant. A piece of art you can tell your grandkids about. Just amazing what one can do in a day. To be what we are meant to be.

Boredom

I'm sometimes hit by melancholiness which will prompt me to ask alot alot of questions about my existent in this world & how to have the courage to live it the way i can or want.

Certain things are so monotonous that's it's bordering along boredom.

Not enough challenges or new stimulations in my life? No guts to live or fight for the life that i want?

I tried to verbalised how i felt but my friends said, aren't u doing so much stuff already? U already have alot of activities, so why still feel bored? I don't know how to answer this question.

I'm looking deep into myself for answers and so far nothing is coming up yet or i'm refusing to see it yet, anyway I hope it will come soon. Time is crucial.

Was chatting to another friend of mine and she know exactly how i am feeling, which brought me some relief, at least I'm not the only one feeling this way.

I read somewhere that i should not block such feelings, u should just let it come, feel it completely and then let it go. If you push it aside, it will just come back & haunt u again some other time.

The worse thing that can happen is procrastinating about life and not doing anything to improve it. Yucks, that will be disappointing & disgusting.

I must learn how to breakthrough myself.

I must.



P/S: Wondering could it be just PMS?? haha..

I dreamed the dream - Les Miserables

I dreamed a dream in times gone by
When hope was highAnd life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving

Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung
No wine untasted

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart
And they turn your dream to shame

He slept a summer by my side
He filled my days with endless wonder
He took my childhood in his stride
But he was gone when autumn came

And still I dream he'll come to me
That we will live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed
The dream I dreamed.

The Contemplative Quest

Paulo Coelho

Linda Sabbath took her three sons and decided to go and live on a small farm in the interior of Canada, where she wanted to dedicate herself completely to spiritual contemplation.

In less than a year she fell in love, got married again, studied the saints’ techniques of meditation, fought for a school for her children, made friends, made enemies, neglected her teeth, got herself an abscess, hitchhiked in snowstorms, learned to fix the car, thaw out frozen pipes, made her alimony stretch out at month’s end, survived on unemployment money, slept without indoor heating, laughed for no reason, cried with despair, built a chapel, made repairs to the house, painted walls, and gave courses on spiritual contemplation.

“And I eventually realized that a life of prayer does not mean isolation,” she says. “Love is so big it has to be shared.

Quote of today:

Man improves himself as he follows his path; if he stands still,waiting to improve before he makes a decision,he’ll never move ~~~ Unpublished sayings

Quotes

While I kept my heart to myself, I never had a single morning of anguish or a single night of insomnia. Since I fell in love, my life has been a sequence of anguish, losses, confusion. I think that God, by using love, managed to hide hell in the middle of Paradise” (C.A., 23/11/2006)

Courage is shown in acts, not in words; it is not bluffing, arrogance, or madness. A courageous man is the one who dares to do what he finds is right, and bears the consequences of his acts – whether they are political, social or individual.

Our selfishness will condemn us to the worst suffering that we ourselves have invented - loneliness.

“Carry in your memory, for the rest of your life, the good things that came out of difficulties.”

"Do not try to explain feelings. Live everything intensely & treasure what u feel as a gift"

successful people

Success is not define as making the most money,
it's rather those who have achieved satisfaction, joy, pride and contentment from their endeavors.

Success is about believing in yourself and trusting that if you are true to your inner voice, as well as listening to your mind, you will choose most wisely for yourself.

The people who have been courageous in this way have invariably ended up the happiest. As if they were having an important meeting with themshelves, they paused first to listen.

excerpt from the book timeshifting by Stephan Rechtschaffen

Time is not a measure: but rather a quality.
When we look at the past we are not rewinding a tape but remembering a gift of our passage on Earth.
Time is not measured like a road is measured, since we take gigantic leaps backwards (memories) and forwards (projects).

Managing is not living: “time is money” is nonsense.
We have to be aware of each moment and know how to take advantage of each single moment in what we are doing (with love) or in just contemplating life.
A day has 24 hours and an infinity of moments.
If we slow down, everything will last much longer. Of course, washing the dishes can take longer too, but why not use that time to think about pleasant things, singing, relaxing, being happy at just being alive?

In tune with life: Arthur Rubinstein (one of the greatest pianists of the 20th century) was once approached by an ardent admirer, who asked him: “How can you use the notes with such mastery?”
The pianist answered: “I use the notes the same way that others do, but the pauses … ah! That’s where the art lies.”

My divorce process was extremely painful and I thought that by keeping busy I would manage to get over the difficult moments, but it did not work out as foreseen because I could not see the pain in my soul.

As of a certain moment I began to “use the pauses” – sit down, let the pain come and reach me and then pass. Little by little I re-structured my life and understood better the reasons for the separation. Today my ex-wife works with me in the Omega Institute – because I was able to face pain, not just hide it behind my work.

p/s: sounds interesting.. gonna go borrowed the book, will keep u all updated.

From Kumar

'You have to find peace within yourself before you can go out and find happiness.
Happiness is the only thing you cannot buy.'

Daily master

Ha... there are times when I go for my quick toilet break at work that I'm struck with tots while doing the er-hem 'toilet business'... today is one such day ;p

Something that I have read last time & was reminded of recently just appeared in my head.

All of us born in a developed & comfortable country has forgotten how to enjoy simple pleasures in life that's so important.

Especially in such a safe & properous Singapore, we are given so much things & lead such comfortable life that we started to take things for granted, that nothing satisfied us and we just want more & more & more!

Come to think of it, it's quite perverse & pathetic. We have so much and we are not happy with what we have, in fact alot of people become unhappy because they feel they do not have enough!
No wonder 3rd world country ppl hates us. I don't like it too therefore i shall be mindful of this.


Every new day is a gift for us to learn new things. I learnt not to complain unnecessarily and to treasure what I have.


I'm thankful that I'm surrounded by many like-minded friends who understand what i'm saying and i'm really glad to have them by my side. Seeing them give me hope that our society will not become too materialistic :)

To quote Ajahn Brahm, " In order to relish and know life in its fullness, we should often savour one moment at a time in silence. Then we might get our money's worth in the five-star resturant called life."

Pointers to remember =)

ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.

TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, t heir conversational skills will be as important as any other.

THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.

FOUR. When you say, 'I love you,' mean it.

FIVE. When you say, 'I'm sorry,' look the person in the eye.

SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.

SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight.

EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone's dreams. People who don't have dreams don't have much.

NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.

TEN.. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.

ELEVEN. Don't judge people by their relatives.

TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly.

THIRTEEN ... When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, 'Why do you want to know?'

FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

FIFTEEN. Say 'bless you' when you hear someone sneeze.

SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose the lesson.

SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and Responsibility for all your actions.

EIGHTEEN. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

NINETEEN. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.

TWENTY- ONE. Spend some time alone.

Relationship and love - from 'my spiritual odyssey' blog

Love - the illusive and elusive that apparently dangles in front of us, reachable at times yet mostly just out of reach. For it is when we first utter the word "I love you" be it verbally to another, or internally to ourselves that we called upon to ourselves suffering.
Why? The moment "I love you" is uttered, we worry if we'll hear it returned. If it is returned, we worry if we can keep it. If it is kept, we keep worrying if it will be lost or sizzle down one day.

And so... this has been the cycle of love that many human beings have gone through and through. Okay - that sounds so bleak, like I've been through love and given up on it.

Far from it. I'm merely observing a fact, and wondering if there's another 'love'. A love that is free, unconditional, empowering and uplifting.I believe the answer lies in this question. What's the purpose of relationship? Let's explore some of the common answers given :

1) To share my life with someone special. So if it is to share my life with someone -what is it within me that I have to share? Is it love, joy, contentment, peace, happiness, wisdom, maturity, generosity or do I carry resentment, anger, bitterness, unreasonableness, insecurity, fear. Okay - these are extreme negative conditions.What about a sense of lack? Many people including myself have gone into relationship because fear of loneliness.That may not be the initial reason... I was hopelessly, heads over heels in love once - but if I had stopped to reflect inward, a deeper reason was to put away my loneliness, to have that someone special in life. Whenever we get into a relationship hoping that the other person can cure our loneliness or give us happiness, contentment - we are bound to be disappointed as nobody can give us happiness and peace. Loneliness is self-created and can only be cured from within. Happiness and inner peace comes from within - not given by external factors, and certainly not another human. It is unfair for us to put such burden onto our beloved for they can never achieve that.

2) Some people believe that it is to find joy, happiness and peace in a relationship. To find implies that we don't have joy and happiness right now and we're trying to find it from another person. That means our beloved has to give us joy and happiness throughout the relationship.

We may argue that we're also giving the same thing - but the truth is - if we enter a relationship with a subconscious reason to find joy and happiness, it means we don't have it right now in our live. We cannot give what we don't have.

So then what's the purpose of relationship? - to procreate and start a family. If that's the only reason - I shudder to think of the sex life :)

Let me suggest that the purpose of relationship is to create love, joy, peace, happiness, contentment, truth, freedom, etc.
To create means I have those stuff now, and even if I don't have them, I can create them again, and in a relationship I can create it together my beloved, doubling even tripling the power. To create suggest a mutual act, one that will bond 2 people even deeper, or as a phrase I've heard, literally melts 2 person into 1. (not just physically la).

To create means I don't fear losing because we can always create more.It also means that a relationship will not curtail the freedom of a person to be who he/she really is, but rather encourage and create a journey of life that bonds 2 person to live out their dreams.

Death

Just watched the Japanese movie 'Departures' and it led me to think of the topic of death.

As a nurse, dying & death issues has never been a taboo topic for me and I never shy away from talking or discussing about it. I know that I sometimes make certain people uncomfortable when I do talk about it and sometimes I think they feel that I'm callous.

To me, death is a natural progress that everyone of us has to go through one day, of course the most ideal scenario is when one only encounter it when one grow old and die of aging.
Then again, everyone knows that it can happen anytime, anywhere, anyway, without notice. It's something that nobody has control over. So why the taboo? Is it due to fear of dying?

In the movie, whenever a person passed away, there's a mixtures of different feelings displayed by different people, there's sadness, peace, anguish, regret & guilt. Many a times, guilt & regret is very prominent, be it not treasuring or treating the dead person well or good enough when the person is alive, only to realise it when the person passed away; enlightened that whatever grudges or blame means nothing when the person dies, instead regretting never having the chance to reconcile the relationship when the person is alive.

Always remember, It's the living who will feel the emotions, those who passed on is at peace already. The living must learn to deal & cope with the feelings that arise when a loved one passed away. If those living treasure their love ones, never take anyone for granted, live life to the fullest, when anyone passed on, it can be dealt with positively and life can carry on with lesser regrets.

In a way, those who passed on 1st have it easier.

One of the lead character whose wife passed away before him said,

"One day, one of us will have to go 1st, it's hard to be the one that's left behind"

How true.

Its a story about a cellist (Daigo)who loses his job and must move back to his hometown. Once back there he reconnects with his past, and comes to terms with his life, love and dreams. Desperate to find a job, he answers an ad listed under departures, which turns out to be misspelled. It was supposed to say the departed, the job pertains to dressing, washing, and putting makeup on the deceased before the funeral. It is a job that most people look down upon because you earn money when someone dies. At first Daigo, does not like his job but little by little he comes to a new understanding of it. The process of prepping the corpse is shown in detail within the context of the story, and little by little we too as an audience get sucked in. it is an incredible ceremony to witness.

P/S: Great movie... breaking the taboo of death & draw the audiences to think abt death matters in a elegant way... cool.

Be true to myself

I just want to be true to myself and really be myself without having to worry about what others think of me.

I used to bend over backwards to accomodate to others, but as I grew older & through various experiences & life lessons, I have become more assertive and learn to say no to things that i'm uncomfortable with and I learnt that it's alright not to please everyone.

But does being assertive and caring more about myself makes me selfish or self-centered?

To a certain extend, I guess it's true.

Again i guess the best is to try to strike a balance.

Potent stuff that i read today

Will just like to post some stuff that i read today that's really hits me.

Here goes...

Accepting yourself

I found out who I am by looking at others. I am afraid of not being as good as they think I am, but I believe they all think this about themselves. During the time that I kept this diary, I finally accepted that I am brave enough to feel fear and to see myself without any artifices. I feel secure enough to feel insecure.

I discovered that people try to project a lot of their own insecurity onto you, just as you do with them. They try to diminish you because they feel small, try to intimidate you because they are not convinced that they are capable.

P/S: www.paulocoelhoblog.com

Quote of the day

'The main purpose of acquiring knowledge is to give it away.'

How cool is that =)

(What's the point of gaining so much knowledge, guarding it safetly? To bring to the grave? *faintz*)

A good leader is someone whose goal is to make themshelve dispensable, cos the leader trains everyone so well that without them around, the organisation still run smoothly.

(^.^)

character traits

Bernice, my colleague, was sharing with me about the different character traits of her 2 sons.

Oliver, the older one, is down to earth and honest, very easy to take care of him cos he always listens to instructions and behaves himself. He's also generous, always share his things and hardly throws tantrums.

Adam, the younger one, is more stubborn, streetwise, & knows how to judge ppl feelings & behave according. Btw, he's only 2 years old, in his child-like way, he already knows how to tug at a person's heartstring and most ppl can't help it but adores him. He's gonna be a lady-killer when he grow up.

It just led us to the discussion about nature Vs nurture. And both of us agreed that we are born with certain characteristics that generally cannot be change.

Which also highlight the point about accepting a person for what he/she are and not trying to change the person to the mould u want, which is a mistake that most ppl make, be it trying to mould yr partner into someone that he/she is not, or trying to make other ppl see yr point of view. If they see it, they will see it, there's no need for any complicated explanations, if they don't see it, it will be super hard for u to convince them, cos they just don't see it.

But I guess when emotions are involved, people just become irrational or over-compromising.

The proverb goes 'A leopard can't change it's spot'

which definition is, "ppl cannot change basic aspect of their character, especially negative ones."

But to be fair, there are ppl who change quite drastically, but this change usually happens after they encounter a life-changing experience. And such life-changing experiences happens only to a rare few.

So in conclusion, it's better to nurture & enhances a person's character based on their nature, then trying to change a person.

Just accept the person for who they are, cos that's the real deal. If you can't, just let the person go. Life will be more fulfilling =)

The everyday master

We always learn something different between dawn and dusk, why not write it down..

Hmm... i think i shall start doing this from tomorrow.

Time

Today while i was looking at the calender, i realised that feburary is coming to an end and march is starting soon...

Wow... we are into the 3rd month of 2009, time really flies..

My mum once say, when u feel that time is passing by so fast, it's means that u are enjoying yr life, those who don't enjoy their life will feel that the time is crawling past them..

how true...

2009 so far have been a good year for me..

My job is not affecting by the crisis.. thankfully..

I'm really enjoying what i'm doing now that I don't wake up feeling miserable having to go to work.. I'm always told that i'm lucky that i love my job, which makes me ponder, why are some people so miserable going to work? Why don't they just go find the job that they will enjoy? hmm.. we spent so much time at work, so i think it's crucial that one at least like it or else yr life will simply be sad!

Then again for those who is unhappy with their job, is it truely that they are not satisfied with the job or they are actually simply not happy with their life.

Try posting these sort of questions to people, u will be surprised how defensive ppl will be.

Sometimes the simplest question is the hardest to answer.

somewhere only we know - keane

i walked across an empty land,
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand.
I felt the earth beneath my feet,
Sat by the river and it made me complete.

Oh, simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on.
So tell me when you're gonna let me in,
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin.

I came across a fallen tree,
I felt the branches; are they looking at me?
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh, simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on.
So tell me when you're gonna let me in,
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin.

AND if you have a minute
why don't we go,
Talk about it somewhere only we know?

This could be the end of everything.
So why don't we go, somewhere only we know,
Somewhere only we know.

Oh, simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on.

So, tell me when you gonna let me in,
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin.

SO if you have a minute why don't we go,
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything.

So why don't we go, so why don't we go,
Hmmm yeahh,
This could be the end of everything.
So why don't we go, somewhere only we know,
Somewhere only we know
Somewhere only we know.

shin passed away

Shin, the lady that i have been following her blog had passed away on the 2nd day of CNY.

A truly inspirational person.

www.shinscancerblog.blogspot.com

Take A Bow - Rihana


How about a round of applause
A standing ovation

You look so dumb right now
Standing outside my house
Trying to apologize
You're so ugly when you cry
Please, just cut it out

_[Chorus]_
Don't tell me you're sorry cuz you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow

Grab your clothes and get gone
You better hurry up before the sprinklers come on
Talkin' about, girl, I love you, you're the one
This just looks like the re-run
Please, what else is on

_[Chorus]_
And don't tell me you're sorry cuz you're not

Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow

And the award for best liar goes to you
For making me believe that you could be
Faithful to me
Let's hear your speech out
How about a round of applause
A standing ovation

_[Chorus]_
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow

But it's over now

P/S: This song really remind me of someone... Ha...

Dreams

• To have a house with a garden and living near the sea, living with people i love and have many friends.
  
• To have a wonderful and fulfilling job and also an interesting and enriching life.
• To find that someone who is of equal wavelength, who love sincerely and deeply and not superficially.
  
  
  possible? Guess life is not that perfect... but then again..
  

who knows =)

My dad's lung CT scan report

Reported by Dr Austin Htoo,

Conclusion;

Residual post-traumatic loculated right basal pleural effusion, with low density pleural fluid. No sinister pleural mass ( viz., mesthelioma, etc) is detected.
The adjoining healed fractures of the right posterior 8th to 11th ribs are appreciated as well. The small subpleural nodule in the right upper lobe is stable as is the tiny nodule in the left upper lobe. Uncomplicated diverticular disease in the caecum and ascending colon..


In summary, a negative CT scan report.. What a tremedous relief.... thank goodness..

Reminders

Posting some stuff that i have read that i will like to keep in mind of..

• Putting off doing the most interesting things in life until you no longer have the strength to do them.

• Thinking that your religion is the sole proprietor of the absolute truth, the most important, the best, and that the other human beings in this immense planet who believe in any other manifestation of God are condemned to the fires of hell. (Which in my opinion, i think it's crap)

• Keeping a smile on your face when you really want to cry.

• Always saying “I tried”, even though you haven’t tried at all.

p/s: Why are human beings so complicated...

Resolution 2009

Hmm... Resolution for 2009, still pondering..

so far only come up with one...

to be continued...

• To be a better listener