Brillant

Received an sms from a friend today.

It put into words what i was trying to convey to people these few days.. it's like a sign!

Here goes:

" It is only when we truly know and understand that we have a limited time on earth and that we have on way of knowing when our time is up that we will begin to live each day to the fullest, as if it were the only one we had."

simply brillant!

think for a moment

Pause for a moment, stop whatever u are doing right now and just think...

What is the most important thing to you right now? the most important thing ever?

If the image flashes in yr mind...

Are u doing yr best to achieve what is important to you?

Are u treating that most important thing with the utmost respect?

If you are, good for you =)

If you are not.. what are u waiting for?

It will not be everyday that u are as healthy or capable as what u are now.

Illness, disability be it mental or physical & death can happen anytime to anyone.

So don't wait anymore... pursue what u want to pursue, do what u want to do when u can.

If death occurs, it's actually easier, cos u are no longer around to regret what is not done.

Regrets comes about only when u are alert & alive & unable to do anything that u wanted to do earlier..

So.. Why wait?

Wondering

Everything happen for a reason.

There's always something to be learn, it's whether or not u want to see it or face it.

Someone told me today, sometimes the important thing is to be aware of it, then try to strike a balance in your emotions. It might not be easy to change everything, but alot of times, negative emotions are self-induced.

So instead of inducing negative emotions, why not induced positive ones =)

I will try.

p/s: enough of whining liao..

The art of listening

Was reminded recently that one of the skills that I want to master is the art of listening.

Not really doing a great job of that. Must try harder.

I must learn to listen, really listen and give full attention to the person that's talking to me.
That's the basic respect that i can give to another person.

Equally important is, I must also learn to listen to my own inner voice, acknowledge what is in there before it's too late.

Soul food of the day

Should one listen to ones heart or brain? Or a mixture of both?

The world is a mixture of matter and spirit so: listen to your brain whenever you need to make material and practical decisions.
But listen to your heart whenever the problem at hand concerns your dreams and hopes.

As Saint Paul wrote in his letter to the Corinthians: “If I have all the eloquence of men or of angels, but speak without love, I am simply a gong booming or a cymbal clashing.

If I have the gift of prophecy, understanding all the mysteries there are, and knowing everything, and if I have faith in all its fullness, to move mountains, but without love, then I am nothing at all.

If I give away all that I possess, piece by piece, and if I even let them take my body to burn it, but am without love, it will do me no good whatever.”

Paulo Coelho

p/s: met up with an old friend today, he told me something that really coincide with what i have just posted today... The signs are all out there.. I just need to listen.

Boredom

I'm sometimes hit by melancholiness which will prompt me to ask alot alot of questions about my existent in this world & how to have the courage to live it the way i can or want.

Certain things are so monotonous that's it's bordering along boredom.

Not enough challenges or new stimulations in my life? No guts to live or fight for the life that i want?

I tried to verbalised how i felt but my friends said, aren't u doing so much stuff already? U already have alot of activities, so why still feel bored? I don't know how to answer this question.

I'm looking deep into myself for answers and so far nothing is coming up yet or i'm refusing to see it yet, anyway I hope it will come soon. Time is crucial.

Was chatting to another friend of mine and she know exactly how i am feeling, which brought me some relief, at least I'm not the only one feeling this way.

I read somewhere that i should not block such feelings, u should just let it come, feel it completely and then let it go. If you push it aside, it will just come back & haunt u again some other time.

The worse thing that can happen is procrastinating about life and not doing anything to improve it. Yucks, that will be disappointing & disgusting.

I must learn how to breakthrough myself.

I must.



P/S: Wondering could it be just PMS?? haha..

Daily master

Ha... there are times when I go for my quick toilet break at work that I'm struck with tots while doing the er-hem 'toilet business'... today is one such day ;p

Something that I have read last time & was reminded of recently just appeared in my head.

All of us born in a developed & comfortable country has forgotten how to enjoy simple pleasures in life that's so important.

Especially in such a safe & properous Singapore, we are given so much things & lead such comfortable life that we started to take things for granted, that nothing satisfied us and we just want more & more & more!

Come to think of it, it's quite perverse & pathetic. We have so much and we are not happy with what we have, in fact alot of people become unhappy because they feel they do not have enough!
No wonder 3rd world country ppl hates us. I don't like it too therefore i shall be mindful of this.


Every new day is a gift for us to learn new things. I learnt not to complain unnecessarily and to treasure what I have.


I'm thankful that I'm surrounded by many like-minded friends who understand what i'm saying and i'm really glad to have them by my side. Seeing them give me hope that our society will not become too materialistic :)

To quote Ajahn Brahm, " In order to relish and know life in its fullness, we should often savour one moment at a time in silence. Then we might get our money's worth in the five-star resturant called life."

Death

Just watched the Japanese movie 'Departures' and it led me to think of the topic of death.

As a nurse, dying & death issues has never been a taboo topic for me and I never shy away from talking or discussing about it. I know that I sometimes make certain people uncomfortable when I do talk about it and sometimes I think they feel that I'm callous.

To me, death is a natural progress that everyone of us has to go through one day, of course the most ideal scenario is when one only encounter it when one grow old and die of aging.
Then again, everyone knows that it can happen anytime, anywhere, anyway, without notice. It's something that nobody has control over. So why the taboo? Is it due to fear of dying?

In the movie, whenever a person passed away, there's a mixtures of different feelings displayed by different people, there's sadness, peace, anguish, regret & guilt. Many a times, guilt & regret is very prominent, be it not treasuring or treating the dead person well or good enough when the person is alive, only to realise it when the person passed away; enlightened that whatever grudges or blame means nothing when the person dies, instead regretting never having the chance to reconcile the relationship when the person is alive.

Always remember, It's the living who will feel the emotions, those who passed on is at peace already. The living must learn to deal & cope with the feelings that arise when a loved one passed away. If those living treasure their love ones, never take anyone for granted, live life to the fullest, when anyone passed on, it can be dealt with positively and life can carry on with lesser regrets.

In a way, those who passed on 1st have it easier.

One of the lead character whose wife passed away before him said,

"One day, one of us will have to go 1st, it's hard to be the one that's left behind"

How true.

A very good book

It's really a very very good book. Everyone should read it.

Wanted to borrow the book since the movie came out ( i didn't catch the movie) but can't find it in the library, guess everyone was reading it that time.

Recently i went to bukit merah library, suddenly just remember abt this novel and so i did a search on the NLB search site, there's 10 books available for loan! So glad!

******Strongly recommended to all************

confused

**** I'm confused ****

When will I have the courage to fight with all my might for what i want??

What am i afraid of??

It's better to crash & burnt then doing nothing at all!!

So what am i waiting for??

I do not have much time left le...

Self-reflection

Some stuff happen at work today that cause me to brood for awhile & came to the conclusion that i should try not to judge other ppl so soon.

Everyone is trying the best to their own abilities already, I'm was just hoping a little more effort & sincerity can be shown by each individual, there are 2 kinds of ppl;

1. Those who cares & think when they work
2. Those who don't give a damn, it's just work, no thinking process required. *&*^&%
( i hate this kind, but i must learnt not to judge them cos i got no rights to)

But after pondering wat happen, I realised that i am perhaps expecting a little too much...

No matter how I may wish things can be different, there is really not alot I can do to help and that makes me abit upset.

Then again I know that things will not change so easily, and rather than complaining abt it, I decided a better way is to do the ultimate best that i can and complain a little bit lesser. I must believe that ppl can be influenced to be better. It will not be easy, but it's a challenge.. haha.. the greater challenge for me is not to get affected, and in the end grumble too much. I hate my grumbling self..

*Actions speak louder than words, hope that things will be better. Important thing is not to get demoralised*