Again & Again

It always happen... though the frequency have greatly reduced..

it's seems like a part of me is determined to not let myself be happy, is always out to sabotage myself.

And this part of me is a liar, a irresponsible person who wants to just shut herself up and not care about anything at all, just want to evade everything.

I always let her come out everynow and then..

this time round, not really sure what triggers it.

not really sure or refusing to face it is the question i ask myself and i fear the answers...

haiz..

Brillant

Received an sms from a friend today.

It put into words what i was trying to convey to people these few days.. it's like a sign!

Here goes:

" It is only when we truly know and understand that we have a limited time on earth and that we have on way of knowing when our time is up that we will begin to live each day to the fullest, as if it were the only one we had."

simply brillant!

I'm tired of it already!

A LEOPARD WILL NOT CHANGE IT'S SPOTS!!!!!

Most of the time, a person will only change when they are at their deathbed! And by that time it's also because there's no way they can revert back to their old bad habits because they are dead!

So I most probably will have to handle SHIT for a long time!!!

If this bad habit only affect you & you alone, then so be it..

But if it affects the rest of the ppl around you.. it's jus so irritating.. and it keep happening again & again...

It's also amazing how irresponsible a person can be!

IT'S FREAKING TIRING HANDLING ALL THESE STUPID NONSENSE AGAIN & AGAIN!!

think for a moment

Pause for a moment, stop whatever u are doing right now and just think...

What is the most important thing to you right now? the most important thing ever?

If the image flashes in yr mind...

Are u doing yr best to achieve what is important to you?

Are u treating that most important thing with the utmost respect?

If you are, good for you =)

If you are not.. what are u waiting for?

It will not be everyday that u are as healthy or capable as what u are now.

Illness, disability be it mental or physical & death can happen anytime to anyone.

So don't wait anymore... pursue what u want to pursue, do what u want to do when u can.

If death occurs, it's actually easier, cos u are no longer around to regret what is not done.

Regrets comes about only when u are alert & alive & unable to do anything that u wanted to do earlier..

So.. Why wait?

District 9 ( Super duper cool show!)

DISTRICT 9 depicts a fictional world where extraterrestrials have become refugees in South Africa. Living in slum-like conditions on Earth, these extraterrestrials suddenly find a kindred spirit in a government agent that is exposed to their biotechnology.

Tiring

Sometimes it's really tiring to always having to be the responsible & sensible one.

It's like why can't i be wilful for once and f*** care what happens.

You wish that people who are older than you have more wisdom and will take up more responsibilities..

But alot of times a person's age doesn't means anything, they are alot of times more childish than u ever can imagine.. Ha

And these 'older' people still wants to use their age to command respect...


OH MY F***king Goodness!!!!!!!

Excerpt

'There are millions of people in the world, and the spirits will see that most of them, you never have to meet.

But there are one or two you are tied to, and the spirits will cross you back and forth,

threading so many knots until they catch and you finally get it right."

Jodi picoult ~ Picture Perfect

Dance, Subaru!

Adapted from a popular Japanese manga (comic book) of the same title, Dance Subaru! is a motivating tale about the self-realization of a young ballerina under adversity. Subaru tells the story of genius ballerina Subaru Miyamoto with a special emphasis placed on the harsh training she undergoes and the immense social and psychological pressure she experiences. Subaru overcomes these issues to give a performance that leaves her audience crying for more.

Poem from 'The Yellow Tears'

"In the face of my life all I can do is panic, such is my useless and pathetic youth.

Now, what we acquire along with our first wrinkle, is our trust in life,

this constant and this smile,

which says,'Friend, I know all about you.'

Looking back we learn, Life never deceives man,

Life... has never deceived a man."

quote by Lao Tsu

" For there to be harmony at home, it must be found in your own heart"

soul tibits

"Solitude is used to teach us how to live with others"

"Death is used to teach us about life"

sleeping sickness

"We've all heard about an illness in Central Africa called sleeping sickness. What we should also know is that a similar disease exists that attacks the soul. It's very dangerous because the early stages often go unnoticed. At the first sign of indifference or lack of enthusiasm, take note!
The only preventive against this disease is the realization that the soul suffers, suffers greatly, when we force it to live superficially. The soul loves all things beautiful and deep"

~~quote from {the winner stands alone} ~~

meaning of life? ~~~ part 2

"Live a worthy life, one that always puts others above self."

Think i will go work as a palliative nurse in my future to come, been thinking about that for awhile. Shall head towards that direction.

food for tots

• Retiring and discovering that you no longer have enough energy to enjoy life and dying a few years later of sheer boredom.
• Postpoing doing the really interesting things in life for later, when you won't hav the energy
• Avoiding depression with large daily doses of television.
• Spending years studying at university only to find at the end of it all that you're unemployable
• Working from nine till five every day at something that gives you no pleasure at all just so that, after thirty years, you can retire.

Ben abuyah and learning

Rabbi Elisha ben Abuyah used to say:

“Those who are open to life’s lessons and who nurture no prejudices are like a blank sheet of paper on which God writes his words with divine ink.

“Those who are always looking on the world with cynicism and prejudice are like a sheet of paper already written upon and on which there is no room for new words.

“Don’t bother about what you already know, or what you don’t know. Don’t think about the past or the future, just let the divine hands write down each day the surprises of the present”.

The meaning of life?

'Death is imminent for everyone..

When u are about to die, you want to leave something behind for those around you.

Even if you pass away, you want those you leave behind to live happily.

I'm able to do my best to live because i thought this way.'

** came across this dialogue when i was watching a drama **

Life is short.. I really cannot understand why people insist to be calculative with each other, petty with each other, picking on each other. It especially sad when we are working in a cancer setting, dealing with patients who faces death angels everyday, for what????? clueless.. =(

Antique Bakery

Synopsis:
Jin-hyuk was brought up as the well-bred heir to a corporate fortune. He has got the looks, the money and the charm, but even so, true love is hard to find. Jin-hyuk opens up a cake shop and hires Sun-woo, a talented patissier who had a crush on Jin-hyuk back in high school. Together with Gi-beom, an ex-boxing champion and Su-young, a clueless bodyguard, four unique and handsome men stir up a quiet neighborhood when they show up at the cake shop, Antique.

p/s: Watch this movie on-line today. The shop antique is so cool.. and the cakes makes one drool! the show explore gay theme.. when the gay looks so good, it's no wonder men falls for him ;p

Realised

I think I am finally starting to realise the meaning of all the stuff that I have been reading and reflecting all these time.

All this while i guess i'm just reading them, ponder over their meaning, thought that i understand it, and promptly forgot about it as time past..

I didn't really practise what i believe in that's why i'm constantly pondering over the same old issues over and over again... talk about pot calling the kettle black..ha..

Yesterday night just before i fell asleep, it just suddenly strike me in my head, How long does this have to go on or what have to happen before i realised?


Hmm.. think i'm getting there, it's still at the tip of the ice-berg but i think i'm finally heading towards the right direction.

hope it continues...

*******crossing fingers***************

Soul food of the day

"Work is a blessing when it helps us to think about what we are doing. But is becomes a curse when its only use is to prevent us from thinking about what our life means."

Paulo Coelho

Quotes.. Quotes.. & more Quotes ;)

From confucius;

"To be wronged is nothing unless you continue to remember it."

"We should feel sorrow, but not sink under its oppression."

"When you are laboring for others let it be with the same zeal as if it were for yourself."

"Wherever you go, go with all your heart."

From Dalai Lama;

"Love and compassion are necessities, not luxuries. Without them humanity cannot survive."

"My religion is very simple. My religion is kindness."

"We can live without religion and meditation, but we cannot survive without human affection."