Again & Again

It always happen... though the frequency have greatly reduced..

it's seems like a part of me is determined to not let myself be happy, is always out to sabotage myself.

And this part of me is a liar, a irresponsible person who wants to just shut herself up and not care about anything at all, just want to evade everything.

I always let her come out everynow and then..

this time round, not really sure what triggers it.

not really sure or refusing to face it is the question i ask myself and i fear the answers...

haiz..

Brillant

Received an sms from a friend today.

It put into words what i was trying to convey to people these few days.. it's like a sign!

Here goes:

" It is only when we truly know and understand that we have a limited time on earth and that we have on way of knowing when our time is up that we will begin to live each day to the fullest, as if it were the only one we had."

simply brillant!

I'm tired of it already!

A LEOPARD WILL NOT CHANGE IT'S SPOTS!!!!!

Most of the time, a person will only change when they are at their deathbed! And by that time it's also because there's no way they can revert back to their old bad habits because they are dead!

So I most probably will have to handle SHIT for a long time!!!

If this bad habit only affect you & you alone, then so be it..

But if it affects the rest of the ppl around you.. it's jus so irritating.. and it keep happening again & again...

It's also amazing how irresponsible a person can be!

IT'S FREAKING TIRING HANDLING ALL THESE STUPID NONSENSE AGAIN & AGAIN!!

think for a moment

Pause for a moment, stop whatever u are doing right now and just think...

What is the most important thing to you right now? the most important thing ever?

If the image flashes in yr mind...

Are u doing yr best to achieve what is important to you?

Are u treating that most important thing with the utmost respect?

If you are, good for you =)

If you are not.. what are u waiting for?

It will not be everyday that u are as healthy or capable as what u are now.

Illness, disability be it mental or physical & death can happen anytime to anyone.

So don't wait anymore... pursue what u want to pursue, do what u want to do when u can.

If death occurs, it's actually easier, cos u are no longer around to regret what is not done.

Regrets comes about only when u are alert & alive & unable to do anything that u wanted to do earlier..

So.. Why wait?

District 9 ( Super duper cool show!)

DISTRICT 9 depicts a fictional world where extraterrestrials have become refugees in South Africa. Living in slum-like conditions on Earth, these extraterrestrials suddenly find a kindred spirit in a government agent that is exposed to their biotechnology.

Tiring

Sometimes it's really tiring to always having to be the responsible & sensible one.

It's like why can't i be wilful for once and f*** care what happens.

You wish that people who are older than you have more wisdom and will take up more responsibilities..

But alot of times a person's age doesn't means anything, they are alot of times more childish than u ever can imagine.. Ha

And these 'older' people still wants to use their age to command respect...


OH MY F***king Goodness!!!!!!!

Excerpt

'There are millions of people in the world, and the spirits will see that most of them, you never have to meet.

But there are one or two you are tied to, and the spirits will cross you back and forth,

threading so many knots until they catch and you finally get it right."

Jodi picoult ~ Picture Perfect